Experiment

I underwent an experiment over the last few weeks.  I tried to taper off my lithium, mostly because I didn't like its side effects.  Mostly things like big muscle twitching and vision impairment.  It sucked not to be able to read a book, and it really sucked to be using a mouse and have my...

Anhedonia

From the Greek 'an-' meaning against or not, and '-hedone', meaning pleasure.  Therefore, a lack of pleasure.  One of the hallmarks of depression.  Not to mention something I've been suffering from to one degree or another for months (years?) now.  Really, I can't tell how long anymore.  When was the last time I was truly happy and...

Staring at the Sun

I've been having an issue since I first got diagnosed as having bipolar illness.  I didn't know how to tell when I was being manic.  I understood hypomania: a sub-manic state that for most bipolar patients indicates something just above what the rest of humanity would just call "happy".  Think of "happy" and then make...

I Get It Now

I haven't had a whole lot to say since my last post about being oversaturated, understandably.  Plus, I've just been busy.  I proudly work at my karate dojo and have been trying to catch up on the hours I lost last month to my various doctor appointments and medication adjustment issues.  I can easily say...