A Quiet Year

2014 was largely uneventful for me.  Which is good.  I like quiet and uneventful.  Which isn't to say it wasn't a good year: it was.  My husband's job got reorganized and in the process he got a raise and the ability to work from home.  Which was a good thing, because I quit my job...

Starting Slow

I'm trying to get my yoga and karate practice going again after quite a long absence, around six months.  My hiatus was for a few reasons, not the least of which was I just wanted a break from everything.  I felt spread a bit thin between family, work, and other obligations and I just wanted...

How Do I Pray? Let Me Count the Ways

It seems to me that there are probably as many ways to pray as there are people on the Earth.  We also seem to group together according to how similarly we pray, I've noticed. When first I asked the question of myself, "How do I pray?", the answer was, "I don't."  Immediately followed by, "Bullshit."...

Refining

I'm up waaaaay too early for a day off. Especially after last week. I put in a lot of extra time at work last week for side projects. So I'm more tired today than usual. Aaaand it might have something to do with not only going back to karate for the first time in six...

Rekindling

My karate dojo had a silent auction fundraiser last night. I brought my henna and glitter stuff to do body art for donation, even though I haven't done either of those things in almost two years. I was a little nervous. I was worried I would suck after such a long time. A feeling that...

Wind and Fire

Praise Buddha, the heat wave has finally broken.  Not before we matched our hottest temperature ever: 112F.  Y'know, if I wanted to live in the fuckin' desert, I would have moved to Las Vegas.  Now it's a much more normal 90F-ish, but we traded almost living on the surface on the Sun to actually being...

Hot Hot Hot

"I tried not to think about the words SEARING.FLESH." - Fight Club It has been blazingly hot lately.  On Tuesday, I measured a temperature of 110F on my back porch.  Some people get SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder)  in the winter.  I get it in the summer.  After all, there's not much going outside.  Not if...

Anger

Anger and I are very, very old friends.  Anger came into my life when I was a baby.  I got to listen to anger through my father in what must have sounded like a monster as he drunkenly attacked my mother.  She told me I would stand up in my crib, holding the bars like...

Water

I'm learning something really damned annoying: I can't drink anymore.  At all.  Not that it was a problem or anything like that for me, but I do enjoy a couple of margaritas or hard ciders every now and then.  Not to mention I have a patch of mint in my garden that produces 3" mint...

I Get It Now

I haven't had a whole lot to say since my last post about being oversaturated, understandably.  Plus, I've just been busy.  I proudly work at my karate dojo and have been trying to catch up on the hours I lost last month to my various doctor appointments and medication adjustment issues.  I can easily say...

Saturation Reached

I got an email from the City library yesterday informing me that the due date on a stack of library books was approaching.  Instead of being disappointed that I was once again running out of time to read the books I had checked out, I hastily stacked them up, removed the bookmarks from the as-yet-unfinished...

Starting Over

I've learned an awful lot about myself and my new chronic illness over the last couple of weeks.  It feels much longer than that.  Here are some of the things I've learned. 1. I have a disease that has a 1 in 5 chance of killing me.  Rather, a disease that gives me a 1...